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this is a page dedicated to my developing practice with lucifer. i have no prior experience with devotional practice or religion from the inside, but he reached out to me and i haven't looked back.

i've only just begun my journey and have not had a whole lot of time to get really into studying yet. i want to look in depth at the well known christian interpretations, but also at the deeper stories that link him to the hellenistic period as well. basically exploring his aspects as the light bringer and a figure of illumination and enlightenment, and his wish for self sovereignty above worship. more of the morning star and less a fallen angel from the bible.

i think i've always been drawn to him in one way or another, i just didn't recognize his more subtle glow. i hope to get to know him better over time and maybe document it along the way as well as fill this space with pictures of things that make me think of him and some of our tarot readings :)

← image from wikimedia featuing the top of Monumento Al Traforo del Cenisio-Frejus in Turin, Italy.

21/04/26

i think i’m being told to quit my patreon. initially, i’d thought that he was telling me to quit my job because it was kinda ruining my day every day, and honestly he probably was. with some gentle nudging of “bro i don’t think you’re all that informed on the local economy to be telling me that right now” i think he’s dropped that point. but after a break from the “big change” and “it’s no longer serving you” messages, it seems like they’ve come back.

but this pull i did last night was so blunt that i thought he was talking about my job again and was kinda confused since i feel like things at work have kinda evened out. i pulled death reversed, resistance of change. then, hoping to clarify, i pulled the wheel of fortune. like hello yes that clarifies nothing other than it’s big. “you’re resisting the change.” “what change?” “the change.” anyway the last was six of swords, distancing yourself from conflict to move towards peace.

since i’d rather keep posts on this page shorter, i’ll be expanding my thoughts on art as a side hustle in my normal blog, but needless to say i connected the dots to my patreon this morning when making a new post.

19/04/26

yesterday my partner and I went on a walk and I picked up that vodka for my perfume! I did realize this morning that I’m not sure if I have a container big enough to store the batch I plan on making so oops on that. (later in the day edit - bought some lids and they're too big :// no perfume until I get the right size) I also bought a turquoise ring to match my bracelets that I‘ve been wearing in pseudo dedication to him. I say pseudo cuz I had already owned these and they were made by my great grandpa, but I figured Lucifer would like them anyway. This ring is for him though, I bought it specifically with him in mind. Unfortunately I was very warm at the time so my fingers were a little thicker and by the time I had cooled down at home it fit a little loose. That’s okay though, I also have my grandmother ring what’s just a plain silver band that I can wear it with as a stopper since I had stopped wearing it after gaining a bit too much weight that I’ve since lost again (happens to me a lot ugh). Seems my long dead relatives are encouraging me to foster this connection, or at least it feels that way with how much I enjoy wearing these pieces as little reminders of him.

i see online that a lot of practitioners have one or a few tarot cards that they associate with lucifer. like when they pull it they know he’s there. and they’re always the big cards like the star or the devil (obviously) but i’ve noticed that one of my repeat cards is the ten of wands. a lot of wands in general right now also. the wands are generally all about energy, willpower, and creativity. those last two i tend to have in excess with the first often limping behind. and lately that lack of energy, the literal and metaphorical kind, has been putting a damper on the willpower and creativity.

i’ve come to see him slipping a wand into my readings as him reaching a hand out to me in acknowledgment. i see you, i see that you’re tired, but i also see that you are still capable. and yes, we both know you have to go on regardless, but i know you can do it.

i get a warm fuzzy feeling every time i get the ten of wands.

⛧ gotta include the classics ⛧

Alexandre Cabanel - Fallen Angel

earlier this month i helped a friend move, it was extremely draining, to the point that i had to call off of work the following monday.

the next day i went to work as normal, tired as hell but i made it. i make a point to sit quietly with him in the evening when i get home and do a reading. that day he greeted me sweetly, showing me the world card. then, as i normally do, i asked how he thought the day went… y’all this clown gave me the knight of wands… adventure, confidence, youthful spirit. if you think that lucifer is a serious deity you’re wrong, he’s a jester jingling his bells to make laugh when i’m tired as hell.

”what should i reflect on tonight?” he followed that up with the 9 of wands, recognizing my grit even though i’m so exhausted. like being a sweet talker will make me forget that you honked your little red nose at me just one card ago.

the following are less fun. ”any specific messages?” ace of pentacles, good things coming, lord i hope so. “what do you think of me talking to my friends about you?” reversed knight of pentacles, took that to mean he didn’t really give a shit. and the last words for the reading: 3 of wands, keep moving forward, a nice message that i would be alright actually.

long and short; lucifer, i love you, you can never convince me that you’re dark and brooding and overly serious. you’re too funny for that.

17/04/26

I cleaned up my altar today, it’s a new moon and that feels like the most appropriate time to do so. Yeah sure I’ve always read about witches and pagans and the like doing shit on the full moon but like… new moon new altar yeah? Makes more sense to me honestly. And that would mean that tonight is the darkest so Venus, if she were more visible to me where I live, would likely look brighter in the sky with no moon to compete. Unfortunately if I wanted to see Venus I’d likely have to go out of town or at least down town where I’d be able to get a better look at the horizon without so many trees or buildings. That and my fucking weird house (converted garage) doesn’t have any west facing windows so I probably can’t see her out the window unless she comes pretty high in the sky to make it over the tree line.

That was a lot of unnecessary complaining. I don’t need to see the evening star to feel his presence. We listened to ghost while I cleaned candle wax off the altar cloth and then reset things in a new way that would probably serve me better. I’ve decided to leave out the tall candles that dripped all over the cloth this time, maybe I’ll put them back or maybe use them on a special occasion like the summer solstice or something, but I kinda stopped lighting them regularly because they would drip all over the cloth and that bothered me. I mentioned to a friend that I’d prefer to keep the altar a little more spartan, a little more utilitarian. It’s not a big table after all, and I don’t want to fall into the trap of putting a bunch of pretty but useless shit on there.

I’m looking to pick up some roses, vodka, and distilled water to make myself some perfume though. I think that would be nice to have a nice smelling perfume to dedicate to him when I get ready in the morning. I do already have a perfume that I wear pretty regularly but that’s just normal perfume that I had before I got to know him. It would be nice for him to have one all on his own.

i think an unintended consequence of spending more time with him is spending less time mindlessly online. like yeah i’ll still go online but it’s to look something up, read someones blog about their experience, add shit to my website or journal. all of these are better uses of my brain power than just mindlessly scrolling through tumblr or bluesky until a reach the end of it. even when i’m on tumblr reading through something like the luciferianism tag i’m at least still engaging more critically than i had been just going through my normal feed. i’m having to think about what these people are saying and how i feel about it and what information i think would be useful for incorporating into my own life and hey that looks like a cool resource to look into more deeply later. and that’s nice.

i’ve been doing tarot readings with him most days since purchasing a deck (which is micah ulrich’s flux arcana deck and you should get one while supplies last). i was initially using an website and then an app but that felt really impersonal. either way i’ve been doing readings and recording them for a little bit now. my intention was to help teach myself the meanings by being able to reference my own prior interpretations, and writing helps me remember better anyway. it’s also interesting to see some patterns in what cards keep coming up. the decks introductory reading was a lot of cups and pentacles, all of them high cards. most of my readings lately have been wands (and i’ll admit to ignoring/arguing with him about it).

he keeps telling me to quit my job, probably cuz it’s the cause of my massive burnout. but i’m just like bud, the economy, come on man you’ve gotta see that it’s not a great idea right now. like where am i gonna find a job that pays this well without having to leave town for the factories or sell my soul to retake my place as a retail middle manager?

at least he seems to listen when i push back and doesn’t demand i follow a suggestion that i just can’t do at the moment without the result being more crazy than the problem.

⛧ the fact that the second one was sexier and they kept it... ⛧

image: Luc Viatour

08/05/26

you are my guiding light and i am watching, i am listening, i am trying to follow. thank you for extending your hand to me now my morning and evening star.

17/04/26

I had a funny little thought this morning on the way to work which is that Lucifer must be a god of the working man since Venus is the morning and the evening star, most present when your average worker is free to be with him.

Is it weird to refer to Venus with she and Lucifer with he and yet ultimately be talking about the same or similar forces? I don’t know. I find it charming and relatable to have a god who can encompass so much gender and yet not be bound by it. Thank you for being relatable my good friend, I promise to listen to you more… I’m not quitting my job, not in this economy.

tonight all the little bits and bobs I usually have on the table are going to sit on the windowsill. Air them out or something, let them look up at the black night sky and hang out with our beloved friend and recharge.

I did a reading for a friend with the pretense that they knew I’ve only just started so take whatever I offer with a big fat grain of salt and I think it went well! It was fun for me to try and listen for the right interpretation when I don’t have all of their context inside my head. Lucifer, and frankly this deck, are very blunt when doing readings from my experience and that held true for my friend. I won’t share their reading but I will say that he basically was reaching out through the cards to grab my friend by the shoulders and shake them like a little rag doll saying “you are only making this harder on yourself please stop that!!” lol

we ended our reading with what I like to ask for as lucifer’s last words and I pulled the ace of swords, a nice clap on the shoulder saying “okay now that I’ve rattled you around a bit you’ve got it from here I promise”.

and then they put me and lucifer in their journal with cute stickers and I wanted to cry I love my friend!!! The ace is right you’ve got this!!!

a recap of the start of my journey

this is taken directly from blog post on 07/02/26

total confirmation bias moment, yesterday morning i was about to leave for work and was opening my driveway gate when i found a peacock feather on the ground inside my driveway. an honest to god real feather from a bird not a fake one. now, that might not sound too weird other than the fact that it’s odd to find peacocks in (undisclosed city). but over the past few days i’d been reading peoples posts on their experiences and their interpretations of history and mythology when i briefly read that lucifer can on rare occasion be associated with peacocks. the connection is with another religion the yezidis where their chief holy figure is associated with peacocks, but that the dominant culture around them regards them as devil worshipers (incorrectly). and i had only read that association briefly from one person and then not again. but i did read it and considering who i am as a person which is someone who loves to read tangentially related histories and be a repository of fun facts, it felt pointed. felt like “i see you seeing me”.

i don’t know, felt like the first tangible sign from any “higher power” that i’ve ever experienced. maybe it’s fake, maybe i’m just burnt out and looking for meaning in clouds, but maybe it’ll help and i’ll get something out of it and that can be real.

29/03/26, 00:00

on friday, february 6th, 2026, i got my first message. i will admit—i was looking for him, something, anything. and when you’re looking for things you’re more likely to find them. but maybe it was the first time i was more honestly looking rather than the classic “if god is real may he strike me down where i stand” style of looking. i was looking for comfort, control, answers. what i’ve found is companionship, and an at times difficult mirror to gaze into. and there is comfort of course, how do you interface with a god and not find comfort? but it’s the warm hand on your shoulder telling you that you can keep going, that you have to, that you’re capable of it even if it’s hard.