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this is a page dedicated to my developing practice with lucifer. i have no prior experience with devotional practice or religion from the inside, but he reached out to me and i haven't looked back.
i've only just begun my journey and have not had a whole lot of time to get really into studying yet. i want to look in depth at the well known christian interpretations, but also at the deeper stories that link him to the hellenistic period as well. basically exploring his aspects as the light bringer and a figure of illumination and enlightenment, and his wish for self sovereignty above worship. more of the morning star and less a fallen angel from the bible.
i think i've always been drawn to him in one way or another, i just didn't recognize his more subtle glow. i hope to get to know him better over time and maybe document it along the way as well as fill this space with pictures of things that make me think of him and some of our tarot readings :)
← image from wikimedia featuing the top of Monumento Al Traforo del Cenisio-Frejus in Turin, Italy.
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gotta include the classics
Alexandre Cabanel - Fallen Angel
earlier this month i helped a friend move, it was extremely draining, to the point that i had to call off of work the following monday.
the next day i went to work as normal, tired as hell but i made it. i make a point to sit quietly with him in the evening when i get home and do a reading. that day he greeted me sweetly, showing me the world card. then, as i normally do, i asked how he thought the day went… y’all this clown gave me the knight of wands… adventure, confidence, youthful spirit. if you think that lucifer is a serious deity you’re wrong, he’s a jester jingling his bells to make laugh when i’m tired as hell.
”what should i reflect on tonight?” he followed that up with the 9 of wands, recognizing my grit even though i’m so exhausted. like being a sweet talker will make me forget that you honked your little red nose at me just one card ago.
the following are less fun. ”any specific messages?” ace of pentacles, good things coming, lord i hope so. “what do you think of me talking to my friends about you?” reversed knight of pentacles, took that to mean he didn’t really give a shit. and the last words for the reading: 3 of wands, keep moving forward, a nice message that i would be alright actually.
long and short; lucifer, i love you, you can never convince me that you’re dark and brooding and overly serious. you’re too funny for that.
i’ve been doing tarot readings with him most days since purchasing a deck (which is micah ulrich’s flux arcana deck and you should get one while supplies last). i was initially using an website and then an app but that felt really impersonal. either way i’ve been doing readings and recording them for a little bit now. my intention was to help teach myself the meanings by being able to reference my own prior interpretations, and writing helps me remember better anyway. it’s also interesting to see some patterns in what cards keep coming up. the decks introductory reading was a lot of cups and pentacles, all of them high cards. most of my readings lately have been wands (and i’ll admit to ignoring/arguing with him about it).
he keeps telling me to quit my job, probably cuz it’s the cause of my massive burnout. but i’m just like bud, the economy, come on man you’ve gotta see that it’s not a great idea right now. like where am i gonna find a job that pays this well without having to leave town for the factories or sell my soul to retake my place as a retail middle manager?
at least he seems to listen when i push back and doesn’t demand i follow a suggestion that i just can’t do at the moment without the result being more crazy than the problem.
a recap of the start of my journey
this is taken directly from blog post on 07/02/26
total confirmation bias moment, yesterday morning i was about to leave for work and was opening my driveway gate when i found a peacock feather on the ground inside my driveway. an honest to god real feather from a bird not a fake one. now, that might not sound too weird other than the fact that it’s odd to find peacocks in (undisclosed city). but over the past few days i’d been reading peoples posts on their experiences and their interpretations of history and mythology when i briefly read that lucifer can on rare occasion be associated with peacocks. the connection is with another religion the yezidis where their chief holy figure is associated with peacocks, but that the dominant culture around them regards them as devil worshipers (incorrectly). and i had only read that association briefly from one person and then not again. but i did read it and considering who i am as a person which is someone who loves to read tangentially related histories and be a repository of fun facts, it felt pointed. felt like “i see you seeing me”.
i don’t know, felt like the first tangible sign from any “higher power” that i’ve ever experienced. maybe it’s fake, maybe i’m just burnt out and looking for meaning in clouds, but maybe it’ll help and i’ll get something out of it and that can be real.
29/03/26, 00:00
on friday, february 6th, 2026, i got my first message. i will admit—i was looking for him, something, anything. and when you’re looking for things you’re more likely to find them. but maybe it was the first time i was more honestly looking rather than the classic “if god is real may he strike me down where i stand” style of looking. i was looking for comfort, control, answers. what i’ve found is companionship, and an at times difficult mirror to gaze into. and there is comfort of course, how do you interface with a god and not find comfort? but it’s the warm hand on your shoulder telling you that you can keep going, that you have to, that you’re capable of it even if it’s hard.